Hello

Well I have to say you 'surprised' me for sure!!! You would be the last person I would expect to hear from and I am so glad that your wrote cause it just makes me remember that we are all people and we/including myself make mistakes and have opinions that don't always coinside with everyone around us....
You are a bigger person than I am and you have humbled me. Thank you so much. THIS was probably the best birthday present I got and I mean that sincerely.

I have moved to a new house and so I don't have a computer anymore. For now I will have to come to the library and check what's going on here on our forum.

I am sorry that I thought and said angry things about you. I did feel threatened because I was living under such horrible conditions and this forum was all I had to keep me sane.. or I thought so.....
I had no right to shoot first then ask questions later.
Please forgive me.

Life is full of new things and I moved before I thought i 'should' but now I know it was perfect timing even though I was a little bit more than upset when I did. On Wednesday my Xhusband whom I was sharing a house with (not on any other terms other than being in the same house) started to get really 'ugly' with me... he has bi-polar and he's nuts and that's about a perfect description of him. Anyway he goes on these rages sometimes and to make a long story short he went off on me and finally I just packed up what i could get in my car and my cat and I left. Luckily for me I had a place to go where I could actually move into and pay rent. I have not been back since that day, the 13th, and I am going to go over there tomarrow but I am taking a friend with me.
I thought it was my job as a wife to help heal this man but he won't do anything for himself and finally I have been released.

Ok I have 30 minutes on here to check my emails and read on our forum so I'd better get a move on

Thank you again for your kind heart and for writing to me and wishing me a happy birthday. I hope you get your student loan and that you do good in your Japanese class!

I love getting along with people and I am sorry you met me when I was just striking out at the world.

I don't want to embarress you but if you would like to post this email on our forum for the rest of the gang to see we've made up it would be all right with me, more than all right but I will leave that up to you.
Also if you do could you do 'spell check' for me LOL LOL LOL
I don't have that available on this computer I am on today.

Have a wonderful day and know there is another person in this world sending good thoughts your way,

Love,
Ces





I forgive you =D So don't you worry about a thing. It's my fault in the first place to post my complaint. The right thing to do was to talk to Horse and or mail him.. Let's just say, this never happened..

Good luck with your love life. I'm sorry to hear that about your ex-husband.

Dear Ces and Butter,

A Very nice move and a right decision you two have made. I never interfered when I saw your short exchange of posts because I was so sure that it was happenning for a good reason. Well, aside from the fact that you guys are big enough and are open minded individuals.

Hey Ces, I missed your birthday. I apologize for my shortcoming. I hope I could make it up with you someday. Hope you had a good one.

Always cheer up!

Horse.

Hi Butterfly

I have to say to you especially and to all who are reading this that I am so glad to have 'made up' with you It just feels so good to log on and to know I am at peace with my friends here. Since I have been coming to the library to get on the net I have not been spending near the time I used to on here so I just discovered this post and I love it!!!! Thank you so much.

I am soooo happy to be on my own and single again. I wake up everyday and thank God for a wonderful day. I'm happy to wake up and 'that' is different than what I have been feeling for the past couple of years. I guess I really had to suffer to realize just how perfect and precious life is. I love being alive

I've been having miracles happening right in front of my eyes almost daily since I moved and I have been practicing the 'stuff' Horse has posted on his new site. I am VERY excited about life now and all it has to offer me. I feel like my life and luck have finally changed... heck I don't just feel it, it's like I've been given a new 'part' to myself who's just thrilled to be alive. I've never had this feeling before and I know I can't just make this happen cause I'd of done it long ago and I've been feeling like this since my birthday on Oct. 14th... or actually on the 13th when I moved out from living with the guy who was once married to (soon I will never have to mention him again that's a nice feeling!)... I know it's a 'God' thing cause I've been feeling soooo good for so long now that I expect it when I wake up everyday and 'I get it' THAT'S the most amazing part to me! I feel like I've been re-born!

Ok enough of me blabbing on but just for that one who may be reading this and feeling like the world is dropping all it's weight on your shoulders just know that there is good that comes out of everything even when we can't see it at the time.... that's been my expereince anyway and then to have Horse's new website affirming that is just wonderful.

I have to run, I'm out of time again at the library but I just had to come down here and write to you'all today and a big hug to your Butterfly for being such a good person.

Ciao Ciao for now,
Ces

P.S. hey has anyone ever heard from Auzzie or Madison again? I always wonder about them and wish them well