Hi Everybody

I haven't seen alot of activity on the Friends Forum lately so I figure everyone is busy and they don't have time to write.
Well I have time tonight so I thought I'd just drop a note to everyone and say hi.
As alot of you know I live in South West Florida and the weather here is always hot or hotter! Lately its been 'hotter' that heck with high humidity but today it rained a little bit and then it cooled things off nice.
I tried all day to get on here but I kept getting that page with a '1' on it. I see that Horse posted a note for us explaining that situation and how very kind of you Horse to keep on taking care of all of us the way you do.
I love this website and I feel like we are all connecting more and more and becoming a family, but probably better cause we all have the same interest of the I Ching which comes from pure love which is God
I'm feeling very 'etherical' tonight
I wonder how Madison is doing and Auss, I hope you guys are ok!
Auss is going to be having her baby soon and that surely is a blessing to the world and all of us, Auss you have lots of good energy flowing you way.
I want to thank Horse, Sav and UK for all the interpretations they do for us, you guys are scoring up good points in Heaven
I feel like I am surrounded by a wonderful family and that makes me feel so good and as you all know I am 'missing' a family very much.
I did meet a guy today through a friend who seems nice, we didn't get to talk much but we are going to talk on the phone tomorrow. So my heart is open to finding a new mate and now I am meeting new men.
Several have passed my way in the past couple of weeks but no real connection has been made, even of the ones I've asked the I Ching about, none of the readings really said 'ya this is the one' yet so I am patient now, I will wait until I have a special feeling in my heart and or until the I Ching gives me the 'go ahead'.
I'll probably post a question on the Free Reading Forum to ask about this new man. He's originally from Italy and lives up in New York state. I like that he is Italian because 5 years ago when my fiancé died I ended up going to Italy for 6 months. I swear God made that trip possible for me because I really had a hard time coping with my fiancé's death and I was in a country where if I had wanted to kill myself (and to be honest it did cross my mind more than once) it was almost impossible to find a gun and since I didn't speak the language I couldn't go out and buy drugs on the street for an overdose and I couldn't say to the people I was staying with 'Hey could you get me some drugs or a gun cause I want to kill myself' I don't think that would have gone over too good and I had too much respect for those wonderful people cause they were so nice to me. I got sick with Mononucleosis 5 days after I arrived in Italy. For those of you that don't know about that illness, it awful to say the least. They used to 20 years ago call it the 'kissing sickness' cause it was believed that if someone had it and they didn't know it (I swear you'll know without a doubt cause you're so sick you have to get better just to die!) that person could kiss you and you'd get it. I suppose that could happen but I hadn't kissed anyone when I got it. I think I got it cause I got so run down and sick that and I just wouldn't 'stop' and grieve that finally I got so sick I had to lay down. And for 7 weeks I had Strep throat 3 times and believe me that will make you lay down!!! To make a long story short I had some real 'God Shots' while I was there, where God absolutely made it more than clear to me that he/she is the ruler of the Universe. I'll write more one day about the big miracle I had while I was there that really woke me up! that proved to me within a shadow of a doubt that I had to learn how to live again
The Italians are very nice people and they have that special love of family that melts my heart so who knows maybe I will get to go back there one day with my own husband and one who really is my soul mate this time. I really am tired of the search.... well I didn't put that right... I mean I wish it had already happened and I was already married to the love of my life. I can't really ever give up that dream that 'it' will happen and I think that's got to be God helping me to keep that dream alive cause believe me I've tried to just say 'I'll just stay single forever and become a Nun or something'... but so far that hasn't happened
Hey who knows that guy I met today could be the one. We didn't meet in person, we chatted on line so that's why I don't have much of an opinion of him yet but he does seem very nice with good manners and he's nice looking too but as we know that does not tell who a person is just who they can be if they keep on being nice
He still has lots of family in Italy and goes back there often so that is a nice thought to think of being with a man who also would be going to Italy. I have always felt that a part of me still lives in Italy or I brought so much of it back with me that it keeps calling me back there. I had never really 'thought' of actually making a trip to Italy before I went there, REALLY! You know how you say sometimes 'oh, that place, oh ya I'd love to go there sometime'... but you never really PLAN to go there cause there's so many other things more important in your life. So that's how I was, when I finally did go it was a last minute decision and I was running away as far as I could go from home but of course I didn't really realize that I would be there when I got there
No matter where I was I had to learn how to live again and WANT to live again.
Oh well that's history now and I've had another little set back recently with this divorce but I'm recovering quickly. I think that comes from life and learning from mistakes I've made. I don't want to do them over again, 'I get it' that I took the wrong turn and now I just want to be back on the right track and have a nice life full of love. God said we could have whatever we wanted! I used to make lists telling God exactly what I wanted right down to that I wanted a helicopter.. I mean hey??? didn't he say anything????
Well I want the most important thing in life, and what can give life to all good things, and that's love, when you've got that inside then when you meet your mate, well life couldn't be better. I guess the Beatles were right with that song huh? All you need is love.... love... love is all you need!
Ok who was singing along with that?
I was!!!
well until I'm blasted with Enlightenment I am going to look for a group to join, maybe even put an add in the local paper and see if there are any I Ching devotees around. THAT would be wonderful. (please say a prayer for me that my Super I Ching book will arrive soon AND that I will be able to comprehend it's concepts. Hey that's what I should do, start a Super I Ching group right here in town!)
Another book I like very much is called 'A Course in Miracles' and those kind of groups are pretty easy to find. I need to hang out more with my peers like you guys who have a common spirituality that makes us all work to be better people. What a difference to be with someone who is on a spiritual path it's such a wonderful feeling of serenity and I guess that's just another word for love
I'm just rambling so I will post this now,
I just wanted to spend some time with you guys and wish you a wonderful day, and to our new friends please know how happy we all are that you are here. Make your self at home cause we all have and it's a great place to be, it's really a palace that we are very proud of and take special care of...
So Welcome Home (as Horse says)

Your friend always,
Ces

Hello
Well it's another beautiful day in Florida and I feel pretty good today, infact I feel better than I have in MONTHS!!!
I don't know how to spell 'Hallelujah' or else I would
I woke up this morning about 7 which is unusual for me, for the past months and I'd gotten my days and nights turned around and I'd be lucky to get to sleep by 2 or 3 in the morning BUT last night I went sleep about midnight then woke up at around 7 and laid there for awhile 'thinking...... why am I awake?'.... so I laid there awhile and then the thought came to me 'why don't you get up and exercise THAT always makes you feel better!'
I haven't worked out regularly for 3 years, before that I worked out 4 days a week for 6 years.... sooooo.... something has been out of whack with me!
I've been feeling this big shift inside of me on a spiritual level..... it like the message is 'The Grieving is over'... and that goes for ALL the grief I could ever call up as I was laying around feeling sorry for myself.
I think I've decided to stay in Florida for awhile so it's time for me to go and visit my Mom then get back here, get a job and move into my own house.
I hope that reading that Horse did for me about WHEN I'm gonna move from here does not literally mean 'next year'.... ICK..... I can't take this guy living in the same house with me much longer.. or even on the same street LOL LOL LOL LOL
I've realized I've been stalling and in that I was hoping that he would have this big spiritual awakening and become a great guy... OH YA RIGHT....
I pray my ass off and try to be the best person I can be everyday (even if that means just keeping my mouth shut if I can't say something nice) so REALLY why in the heck would God 'zap' him? A guy who's doing nothing to help himself.
So Here I am filling y'all in (that's a southern slang for 'you guys' ) on my life. I feel like I am so connected to this board and by the way I miss EVERYONE... either no one can get on the net or everyone is busy with their lives... WHICH... I'm working on creating my self.. of course with God's help...
Oh I did talk to that Italian guy last night on the phone. First we talked for about and hour when I first called and it was nice, I was pretty straight forward as usual, it either 'makes or breaks' me almost immediately but I'm still not real big on patience with men just yet or ones trying to feed me a line of bullshit. Well this guy seemed pretty nice. So he called me back later after he'd had his dinner and we talked on the phone for 3 hours! It was really fun.
Well I'm headed to the beach in a little while with my friend Debbie and we are gonna spend the day there. There's 'something' in that salt water that keeps calling me back and over the past couple of months I just 'had' to get in that water and soak, and swim around too but mainly I had this unusual 'need' to get in the water! So maybe it's healing me. I mean that water is close to our own saline in our bodies...
All I know is that I am grateful that I have the time now to do what I need to do TO heal and that I actually am getting better and not just 'hoping' and that 'I gotta feelin' that everything is gonna be just fine'
So next time I'm on here whining about how mean life is to me, remind me that I must have gotten on the wrong exit and to get back on my trail heading up to the top of the mountain. There's a lot of trails heading to the top of the mountain and I don't think God really care which one you're on but it is a good idea to atleast get on one. It does make life alot more livable for me to KNOW that there is something/someone else in charge cause when I think of me being the one running the Universe... well ... I'm just not quite ready for that job yet.. I'll just leave it at that, I don't want to say derogatory things about myself! Not good to put negative programs into the new software that is being created in my head
Isn't it funny how computers have just become such a part of our lives?!
When I was in high school there were no computers. I graduated in 1971. I remember 'them' (whoever they were, ya know its the same 'they' as today... did that make sense? it did to me) ANYWAY...... THEY said 'computers are THE THING of the future and WE all said 'ahhhh it will never last!'.......
Ok that's your little history lesson for today ))
I hope everyone is alive and well and doing good. If you are write, and if you're not write when you can.
Ok Ciao and have a great day,
Cec

Hello Ces,

its nice that you have told us more about yourself.
Recently have been a bit busy myself.. and when I'm actually quite free to come in, the website is having problem.

Ahh its feels great to be able to come in again and write a bit.
Sometimes I quite envy people out there who gets to travel around the world and see places, meet different people. My country is really small, and the people here just work day in and out almost all year round.
Anyway, I'm really glad my company is sending me overseas for some training next month. Supposed to be this, but delayed due to some incidents.

;p Frankly, its my 1st time to go overseas alone, quite nervous and excited as well, but I feel its going to be great experience for me. Hopefully in near future i'll get the chance to visit some of the places i always see on the TV

Its always fun and exciting to meet new friends of the opposite sex and well, especially going into the dating 'phase', ain't it?
Wish you luck with this new guy you mentioned.

Take care & regards to all friends too
sav

Hi Sav
Hey it sounds cool about your up coming trip! So where is your company sending you too?
Just remember if you’re coming to the states that most of that stuff on TV is not the way real people live unless of course you go to southern California/Hollyweird.. I mean Hollywood
So where are you going on your trip anyway?
It's wonderful that you are going on an adventure, I hope you have lots of fun along with doing whatever it is you will do for your company.
Well it's another beautiful morning here in Florida, I am beginning to feel very fortunate that I live here and have access to beautiful beaches. I'm still not too crazy about having alligators around or all the poisonous snakes BUT staying close to the beach and out of the swamps kind of makes a big difference in staying safe... WELL.... As long as there are no sharks around! hummmmmm??????
Maybe I am not as fortunate as I think LOL LOL LOL LOL
I wanted the Italian guy to 'be the one'..... I really am tired of the search... I'm 50 years old it's friggin' time I got my wish..... 'Those are the kinds of talks I have with God when I'm 'moody' like I feel like I just may be today! I'm just physically tired for all my exercising yesterday, aerobics in the morning then SWIMMING like it was my last day in the water for all time, yesterday...... goddddddd I must have swam off and on for about 3 hours then the rest of the time I was laying on my chair relaxing and waiting till I got too hot again then back in the water. There's 'something' in that salt water that is healing my body and soul. I don't know how it works but I just know I have radar for it and I have to be in the water, like a duck has to be near or in water. It's really an odd feeling which is starting to feel more natural and whatever is going on I'm liking the way I am feeling alive lately more so than the AWFUL way I was laying around dying of a broken heart for almost a friggin' month.... GAG........ Ya know when you look back on 'things' have you ever just wondered.......’ goddddd was that really me??????'
Well that's how I'm feeling as this new woman in me is emerging I still don't know all of her/me yet but it's pretty cool how doors are beginning to open SLOWLY!!! Which of course I want 'it all now' LOL LOL LOL
UK did my interpretation in the Free Reading Forum to ask about 'The Italian Guy' (sounds like a title for a romance novel lol lol lol) and he said my luck or there would be a good chance coming for me on the or about or after the 8th of August, so that makes me feel good and gives me hope. At this point I need those little goals to head to, like a light in the dark. I don't ever want to lose hope again or forget who I am or was or could become. I did that when I was with this man who I just divorced, somehow I let his negativity that was subtle at first then eventually took over, just knock me down to his level... and I forgot who I was. That is such a gross thing to admit!!!! But it can happen and I hope no one else ever has to do something so stupid BUT I will never let something like that happen again and THANK GOD for the new interpretation being the Super I Ching cause THAT makes me feel like I have this new protection and direction and that 'everything is going to be ok’...
Like in those dam kids stories 'and then they lived happily ever after’... which is not always the case in life but with the I Ching guiding us we've got the best chance in life to have the secrets or the answers to the Universe in the palm of our hands.
Ok that's it.... I can't stand it... I'm calling Alex today and begging for him to send me that book
Y’all have a wonderful day; I'm going out onto the lani and doing Yoga for awhile, my muscles are sort of giving me 'notice' that I need to stretch
My love to one and all,
Your friend,
Ces

Hello Ces

well.. they are sending me to hong kong. Initially was planned to go in end july.. then it was postphoned to mid august. now pushed further back to early sept. anyway its really going to be kind of good experience for me.

yeah i feel what we see on TV about places are usually the 'best part & scenes' that they captured for us to watch. It sure has many other stuff that are not "included".

Its good to see that you are enjoying life doing the things you liked, can be relaxed...etc. I still have a long way ahead of me to climb my career 'ladder'. Hopefully this job I am in now can lead me to somewhere good in the coming years

hope you have great week ahead of you!
take care
sav

HI Sav

HONG KONG Man I've wanted to go there for years!

I read a series of books by James Clavel in the early 1980's and I think three of them were based in Hong Kong. Let's see..... there was Tai Pan, Nobel House... and then another one that followed Nobel House but I can't remember the name of it, the others were Shogun, King Rat, Whirlwind and Gaigin (which I KNOW I spelled that wrong but it means foreigner in Japanese). That last book was not too good cause Clavel died before finishing the book and they had a 'ghost' writer finish it and it was not good which was too bad cause it was a great subject
!
So wasn't it me that just told you recently that everything you see on TV is not the way real people live LOL LOL LOL
I'm sure everyone in Hong Kong does not live like the Tai Pan and all his pals AND enemy's. God those were good books and after that I wanted to go to Hong Kong forever.

I used to say 'if I ever get married I want to have my honeymoon in Hong Kong'
I remember telling Bill that, my fiancé that died 5 years ago, we hadn't know each other long(so this is like 15 years ago we had this conversation) and he mentioned something like 'what would you want to do when you got married to celebrate' and I said "Go to Hong Kong," then he raises his glass to me and says 'Here's to dinner in Hong Kong'

That was so sweet, that's the kind of stuff that can just melt a girls heart IF she's with the guy she's in love with. Of course either of us had 'said' that to each other at that time but it was becoming more than obvious that there 'was something pretty special there'

You're gonna have such a good time there. That is such an exciting city, the history goes on forever, soooooo much as gone on and does go on there!
I had a friend once who went there brought me back some cool stuff from there, that was way back in the early 80's ..... IF ..... I had had my passport I could have gone! it was a last minute business trip and I couldn't go cause I couldn't get my passport in time. I went and applied for one and got it and since then I've always had one but no one's offered me a trip to Hong Kong since Maybe one day I can afford to take 'myself' there

I need to go there with my sister, she is the shopping queen and she's trained me well ... we could shop forever and we would if we were there.

I hope you won't have to work too much while you are there, and maybe you can go into China... there's so many wonders to see there and I will be praying that you have a great time.

Ok I'm out of here, I was going to go to the beach but the daughter of the man I was married to is coming on Saturday and I really need to mop all the floors which is ALOT! and takes about 3 hours if I'm really cookin' and I got to thinking that it would probably be better to do that today and then I could really relax at the beach tomorrow and not be thinking about what house work I need to do

I like his daughter, she is 28 years old and very sweet and needs lots of love, she has had some real tragedies in her life... well I was married to her Dad so I know the s--t that he pulled on her and her brother, he obviously did it to everyone who was close to him!

So I'm gonna make her some chocolate chip cookies too...probably cause I want to eat ONE... ya right!!! I probably won't eat any of them, that's the only way I can keep from eating them all!!!

I'll check back here later and see if anyone is one line from our Forum. It is summer after all and if people aren't working then hopefully they are on a holiday somewhere!

Ciao Ciao,
Ces