Dear Cecilia,

Hi, there! I'm happy to know that you're on your feet again and not sulking anymore. May I commend you, too, for the great way by which you face life anew - helping friends in your sweet little way. Hope you will all be in good health - always!

You made me smile when you mentioned "that's when I met my husband who is now NOT my husband". Ha ha ha Think of it this way - at least you're among the lucky ones who are given a second chance at happiness!!

Know what? I can easily emphatize with you because I am a "hopeless romantic" and I know how hard it is to find that right "someone". I tell you, it may take you a lifetime but keep on searching, nevertheless. You may be among the lucky ones . Also, remember that it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all! Do you know what my policy is when it comes to relationships? I give it my best shot. I love friends and that special someone wholeheartedly so that when the time comes that we have to part because the relationship failed, I will not have any regrets. It's different when you know that you have done everything to make that person happy - when it is time to say goodbye, you can still look him in the eye and say " I've done my best . . . if it is still not good for you, then maybe we are not meant to be." And then, you can walk away without a heavy lump in your heart - you know what I mean.

About I-ching: nice to hear that you are at it, too, just like Horse. Me, I am just starting reading about it. Hope time will come when I can help others, too!

Ces (if I may call you that), I know that you're a person with a big heart! Don't worry, your own "home and family" will be yours, in time!

Take care! I'll keep in touch!

Madison

Hi Madison,
How very sweet to hear from you
I am feeling a bit better and I don't know 'WHY' but I am so I am 'going with it'
Yesterday I colored my hair and today I got up and cleaned house and dressed nice and now I going to go up to the hospital to see my friend who's mother is very ill.
I'm also going to stop by and see a lady who is going to show me 'again' how to begin a knitting project that I want to do for my mother. My mother lives in Idaho with a cousin, I took care of her for years before and after my father died but now she needs someone to lift her and my cousin is a big guy who is very capable of doing that and loves my Mom very much.
Anyway... onward and upward.
I was getting sort of frightened that I was always going to be a big lump of nothing laying around feeling sorry for myself. I still don't feel like I think I should but this is alot better than how I've been feeling the last 3 weeks.
I still am in the house with my 'not husband' and it's amazing how much nicer he is being now that we are not married. we are like two roommates but I don't spend too much time with him. Every now and then I sit down and watch TV with him but I can't stand TV for too long unless its a very good program and we both know how far and few between those are anymore! LOL LOL LOL
I still can't come up with a 'plan' for me life so I think I will just go out and visit my Mom and get away from here for a few weeks and maybe then I will get a new perspective on life, and hopefully 'my life'
So in the mean time I have been reading and being on the computer and talking on the phone to a couple of friends and sleeping and now I feel like I am a little bit more awake and ready to step out into the world. I just hope this energy lasts and continues to build because I want so much to feel the direction I need to go and follow it gladly.
In all the years I have been on the net I have never enjoyed more than these I Ching boards I have come across in the past month or so. So I guess that is the GOOD thing that's come out of me laying around with a broken heart, now it's not so broken anymore and I am feeling like I am truly healing.
I do love the I Ching. I have been a faithful student of it for years. I call it 'Letters From God'... but I have to say this new Super I Ching is really fascinating. I have ordered the book and called Alex yesterday and expect to receive the book in a couple of weeks. He is a very nice young man and I feel he is also very sincere.
So I am not good yet at interpreting the hexagrams as the new teachings will instruct me but I will surely practice. It really is a relief to have this new information available because for the past 15 years I have not always understood the meanings I got from the I Ching. All I knew is that I always had to have the I Ching with me, that it is my connection to the Universe/God.... Cosmos, whatever you want to call it
Now I'd better get going and I will check back here later this evening.
I hope you have a great day and that goes for all our friends here on the board.
Yes you can call me Ces, actually I like having that for a nick name, it's sweet and I thank Horse for that bit of tenderness when I was feeling so very very down.
I love all you guys and I'm so happy to be here with you all
Ces

Dear Ces,

I am so glad to learn that you are beginning to see the beauty of your life, again. I am also glad to know that you are very interseted to learn super iching and have ordered your book from Alex. One day, I hope you will come back in this board to offer free reading for other people. You are a good student of iching (ancient text?) and it'll only take a few weeks, i think, before you can practice the super iching. So, you are welcome to read for people here.

Thank you also Madison for taking care of Ces. I appreciate your kindness. I hope you can spend more time at friends forum. And when you're done with your super iching study, you are also welcome to practice here.

I need help from people like you to help other members of this board. And I thank God, you can spend time for this board.

Your friend,

Horse.

Oh Horse you are so sweet
Thank you for making me feel so good and Madison too! (that you made her feel good)
I feel like we should all go out to dinner now ))))
Well LETS HOPE I can understand the Super I Ching book once I get it.
I started with the Wilhelm/Baynes edition and then every other book that was ever written about the I Ching (I have read them all, a few are good and the rest are worthless I think) to try and help me understand! Mostly now after 15 years I still like the Wilhelm edition the best, it makes the most sense to me which, sometimes I still can't understand.... BUT.... I am so excited about learning the Super I Ching because so much of the time I really can't apply the hexagram/s I've gotten from a question I've asked but I just take it at face value and trust the I Ching always, even if I don't know what the heck I am doing.
To realize there is a system developed by Alex Chui that is a way to really know the I Ching is something that is a miracle and I am glad to be alive and able to learn it.
I would love to be so good as to interpret the hexagrams for anyone but first I must make sure I know what the heck I am doing
Tomorrow if it doesn't rain I am going to go to the beach and soak in the sun and the water, during this time of me being so sad there were several times I HAD to get to the ocean and get into the water. There I'd stay for an hour at a time before coming out, it was like I was being reborn or something, I can't explain it but I didn't just 'want' to go to the beach, I HAD to get in that water. The water on the west coast of Florida in the Gulf of Mexico is so warm that on some days its almost too warm if you can believe that! But as I was saying I think it was 3 different times that I just had to get to the beach and into the water where I'd stay for hours and hours and then afterwards I'd be absolutely exhausted from just being in the water then I would go home and lay around for 3 days, I can look back and see now it was nature's way of making me stay calm when I was so sad and mad, hopefully I will figure out more too.
I'm not a 'big' swimmer and I don't like to go out over my head but I do just tread around and swim a little, but in all actuality I'm moving constantly once I am in the water.
I should ask the I Ching about why it was so important for me to go to the water.
I have one water sign in my entire Astrological Chart LOL LOL LOL
I love water as long as I am feeling very safe ))
but we all come from water and I've sort of lost my the point I was trying to make other than I'm feeling alive again, but still not up to par and I can only hope I will get better all the time.
This Friends Forum has been a blessing in disguise to me and thank you Horse for suggesting it to me in the first place
May we all be happy and full of love and SERENITY for all time )))
Love,
Ces

Hi Ces,

I guess there are many people who liked the beach when they are feeling down..etc.. coz.. I'm one of them!
Its really makes one feel so good.. looking at the waves.. hearing the waves.. how i wished i could be there right now!

Probably its the broad horizon that makes one feel relaxed.. no obstructions..

I'm really glad to have found this forum too.. making friends with you people here. A place where there will be people to lend a ear.. give advice.. this is really a wonderful place

wish all of you happy & well
cheers,
sav

Hi Sav,
Thanks for writting.
It's raining today so I won't be going to the beach.
I slept last night better than I have in months!
When I woke up I thought it was about 8 or 9 in the morning and I was shocked and happy to see it was NOON!!! Somehow I think I have made the transition from being stressed out to the max to becoming more relaxed. Hopefuly now I will be able to make some solid decisions about my life.
Today I will spend some time with the I Ching and post some hexagrams and start working on a plan!
I hope you have a great day,
Ces

Dear Sav, Ces, Horse, Aussie,

Hi! Hope everythin's going great for all of you. (Haven't seen Auss here as of late but I'm hoping she's well and happy).

Ces, when you said you colored your hair, I can't help but smile because "making myself beautiful" is one of the things I usually do when I'm depressed. I also go shopping (window shopping, I mean) when I'm feeling down because the great stuff I see in stores lift my spirit up. It's just like hearing them say: "see? there are a lot of beautiful things in this world, so stop sulking".

It's also great to hear that you'll go into knitting. Know what? There was a time I went into crossstitching to take my mind off the never-ending office concerns. Had some projects done and they were really labor of love. Hope I could go back to it soon . . . or do some scriptwriting which is a childhood fancy.

I hope your visit to your mom would be a very fruitful trip, Ces! Go, girl and enjoy the world with your newfound freedom!!! Hope that soon, your "not so broken heart" would be: "no longer broken".

Sav, good to hear that like Ces, you also enjoy the beach. I love it, too! I like staring at the dancing waves and looking at the blue horizon. Gives me the calm and peace I need.

Horse, I hope you would always be there! You brought us together and I hope we can get to see/meet each other someday! Who knows?

Wish you all a happy day

Madison

Hi Madison
Its nice to see you here.
Tonight I have spend a long time with the I Ching asking questions about my life.
I have lots of them and am going to start posting them for Horse to help me interpret.
It has been a month now since I have been divorced and really tonight was the first time I could sit down with the I Ching and start to ask questions... before/this last month I couldn't even throw the coins so I do feel like I am waking up! THANK GOD!!!
Oh how I hate to be down so low, but I suppose no one 'like's to feel that way, it's such torture! But some good has come out of it and I still don't understand the Human Condition but I keep on trying to just live and find a way to be happy.
I atleast know what questions to ask, before I was just blank!
You've been wonderful being so supportive. I want to help people too and I will study the Super I Ching very diligently so that I can! (when I get it
I have a cat who I adore, he was sent to me by a friend of mine who passed over into the Spirit World (really), he came to me in a dream about 5 years ago and told me he was going to send me this little cat so I wouldn't be so lonely! The next day this little 'man' cat arrived at my house. He was wild but he moved in that day and it's been true love ever since. He just came in the room and he's talking alot so I think maybe he's saying hi to everyone. He talks to me all the time! He also never enters a room without announcing himself, he makes me laugh and my heart sing THAT is love and I am beginning to remember what life is all about. I forgot who I was for awhile and I never want to go there again. This darling cat of mine 'Rico' has been 'connected to my hip' from day one. What a blessing he is and what an opportunity LIFE is especially when you know what you are here for and that is my 'quest' to find out and then DO IT!
So now I'll go to the Free Reading Board and start posting my questions.
Where do you live Madison? Just wondering cause when I am on line in this Forum during the day I am usually the only one here.
To you Madison and all my other pals here I send a big hug and say thank you for being there for me when I was so lost. I guess I should post this in 'how the I Ching has helped me!'.... maybe Horse will if he thinks its appropriate....
But look out HorseLibra I've got a bunch of questions I need answers to so I can move on with my life
I love that name 'HorseLibra' by the way. I am a big fan of horses, I had them when I was a kid growing up and some times when I was an adult. I miss them so much and I too am a Libra.
It's 1:34am EST so I'd better get to writing my questions down then get some sleep. That's another thing, during this time of feeling so low my days and nights got completely switched around and it looks like tomorrow I will be waking up late too. Well I am not too worried about that cause I am ready to begin my new life. I am only awaiting the instructions from the I Ching... I call them 'Letter's from God'
See y'all back here soon,
Love,
Ces

Dear Cecilia

First of all

Welcome to the Forum

WOW! You have had a real topsy-turvy time lately. I am very thankful that Horse, Madison and Sav have been able to welcome you. I have just been flat out lately (grrrr!)

I am glad that things are a bit better with your ex-husband. It must be so difficult living in the same house as him at the moment. At least he isn't trying to argue with you all the time.

Don't worry, one day everything will be how you would like it to be.

I remember when things were tough for me a few years ago, I started doing cross-stiches and the like to try and keep my mind occupied. I ended up becoming very good at - that reminds me, I had better get them all out to see if there are any appropriate ones for the baby.

I hope that you enjoy your visit to your mother's place. It will give you a chance to get away from it all and relax for a bit.

Wishing you all the best

Auss

Hi Auss
Thanks so much for the kind words.
Hey I am excited for you that your baby will be born in 34 days!!!
Oh how wonderful, babies are such blessings.
I remember holding my little Grand-Niece when she was just 36 hours old and I could feel this amazing flow of love from her/me and God just streaming in.. I didn't want to put her down and actually I held her off and on all that day.
I don't get to see her much so I greet all babies as if they were my grand babies
You are in Australia right?
I'd like to go there sometime, I've been reading about it and watching programs about your country for years.
And yes that knitting is a miracle. The day I 'learned' was a day I felt like I was just going to die if I didn't do something to feel better. I went to Wal-Mart and looked at the yarn and a lady who works there said 'I can teach you to knit if you don't know how' I was amazed and 3 hours later I left the store with my knitting begun and a new friend.... and interesting is that her name is Cecile .... close to my name!!! anyway I went back a couple of nights ago to see her (she only works evening shifts) and she helped me with a problem I was having in the knitting, it really is therapeutic.... so once again I feel like I had Divine intervention that day because I was given a way to 'get out' of myself for awhile and now as I knit I either think of nothing or of all the blankets I want to make and it makes me feel very happy so really that's the main thing AND now I realize that it's the ONLY thing in life. If we/humans don't feel happy and or love/d then I/we are miserable and I am DONE with feeling that way.
Have a great day,
Love,
Ces
P.S. maybe by Christmas time I will be confident enough to knit a blanket for your baby

Dear Everybody,

Hi! Great to have Aussie back. And thanks, Ces, for the nice letter. (saying "hello" to your dear Rico, too! meowwww)

Had done some reading on super-iching, too. Think I would have a better understanding now of Horse's readings, unlike before. Hope I'd soon be good at interpreting the hex so I can also help people!


You're right, Ces! We're on different sides of the world. My country had been in the limelight lately due to another "hostage situation" in Iraq. Yeah, right! Angelo de la Cruz is from my country - the Philippines.

Auss, we all pray for your safe delivery . . . and may your baby be healthy, too! Don't worry a bit about your date with the stork! Everything will be fine. Would it help if I tell you I have five of those? (I mean . . . 5 kids!) Yes! I do! (But don't look at me as if I'm an "oldie"! ) I am still in my forties and I'd like to remind you . . . there are a lot of movie stars (of the same age) who are still a sight to behold. When you get to my age, you'll know that at this stage, you still feel young and beautiful. (Ha ha ha! Hope sav and horse aren't laughing).

Got to get going! Will tell you more about me next time! Good day and big hug!

Madison