Hello Everyone!

I just thought I would share a little bit about me. My life so far has been rather different - alot has happened, especially over the past 7/8 years.

My childhood was very repressed - my mother was very controlling and my father was always working to get her what she wanted. I am an only child, so this made for a very lonely childhood. People used to comment to my parents all the time about how quite and 'perfect' I was - I always did exactly as I was told, however, I never used to talk to anyone. Thankfully, we lived on farms, so I my 'friends' were my animals - my pure-breed arabian and my cats. My mother got me into horse-riding at a very young age - I was only 3 1/2 when I first rode a horse, was entered into my first show by the age of 4. To my mother, everything revolved around horses. There was a period of about 2 years when I didn't want to ride anymore - I was 8 years old and during that time my mother ignored me and wouldn't do anything with me, until I started riding again.

My teenage years weren't really all that much better. At high-school I was always picked on because I was so thin and because my ears stick out a little bit - kids can be so cruel at times. My nickname at high-school was Anna (as in anarexic) even though I was under doctor's orders that I had to eat something substaintial every 2 hours because my metabolism was just way too quick. I had a very traumatic accident involving someone I thought loved me (but didn't, just a typical teenage boy) at the age of 16. This change me in such a way that I retreated into myself and tried to shut out the outside world even more. Once I realised I couldn't though (you can only shut out the world so much), I became very angry with myself and the world. This was when I first started doing drugs (only pot at first) as a means of escaping from my problems.

High school finished, I meet a lovely guy, went to Business College, got a Diploma and a really great Government job. Just when I thought things were going along okay, my parents split up. Split up? If only it were that simple. My mother actually rorted my father for a large amount of money through their business whilst he was in another state earning money to pay the business debts. This was one of the times I have been very thankful that I am an only child - I was just over 18 when they started Court proceedings. My father became a mess, my mother turned into a pretty good story teller. I decided to split up with the lovely guy I was with, quit my Government job and move to the other side of the country to be with my father - he needed someone and I knew that if he didn't get some kind of support, he wasn't going to make it. He is too good a person to have that happen to him.

These Court proceedings dragged on for the next 7 years. The stress of trying to keep my father on track along with the guilt trips I received from my mother, I found that I couldn't cope with the stress of it all, PLUS coming to grips with the fact that the only way my father was going to get justice was if I gave evidence against my mother in the Family Court. For 4 years, I turned to hard drugs as a means of escape (my father has told me that this is one of the things that kept him on track was worrying about me during this time). A lot of bad, bad things happened to me during this time - real bad.

Then, two years ago, I meet a lovely guy who understood me, and my problems, that he managed to get me to stop taking drugs. He showed me that I didn't need them in order to get through life. He saw in me what I couldn't/wouldn't see - someone who was better than all that. He helped me through the subsequent mental breakdown that followed - I had a bad case of depression/anxiety/agrophobia and anger problems towards myself. If it wasn't for my partner, I know I wouldn't have gotten through it.

Today, things are still kinda stressed for me but nowhere near as bad as what they were. My father is waiting for a decision from the Family Court (still) and my mother and I aren't I talking terms at present (she knows that she can contact me at anytime - I am no longer angry with her, she just doesn't want to know me because I told the truth in Court). My partner and I are expecting our first child in August - not too far away now - we are having a little boy. I can't wait to meet him - I think it is going to be absolutely fanstastic being a mother.

WOW! So much for a little bit about myself, eh?

I have to admit - I have learned alot about life and alot about myself and just how much I can handle. I am still a worry-wart but I am hoping that over time I can work through these little emotional hic-ups. The one thing I have learned is that nothing is ever as bad as it first seems and that I will survive what ever life throws at me.

If you would like to comment about this, you may. Because I have been through so much, I feel that I am very good at offering advice, so if you would like some advice, just ask away!

Wishing you all the best!


aussieincome

I also know of a story about a family matter that was brought to court. I could not imagine how the children felt when their parents separated upon the decision of the court. My wife and I also got into trouble when both of us came to a point where we couldn't understand each other well anymore. You know, simple matter can easily blow things out of proportion. But because I love (and I'm sure she loves) our children so much, somehow we had to sacrifice our ego and our own principles in order for the marriage to work out. But sometimes, for some couples, it seems so hard to work things out. I feel so sorry about your past but I'm sure, this had made you a great person.

I am glad to know that you fit this "Friend's" forum. You know, sometimes, I find Iching limited when it comes to giving advice. Iching can tell the do's and dont's but the ability of a person of iching in giving advice based on what he/she sees in the hexagram will make it more meaningful and fullfiling for the querent.

Therefore I propose that you moderate this forum. People can ask your advice after they asked the iching (free reading) or they can go directly to this forum even without asking the iching for your advice.

Other people can also develop their ability to help, thru this forum, by giving out good advice to other people who are members and visitors of this board. By doing so, this community can become community of people who help other people.

The Horse.

Hello Horse,

WOW! I would love to help moderate the "Friends" forum with you - nothing would give me greater pleasure than to help other people who need advice about life and it's tribulations.

You are right - everything that I have been through has made me a better person. It has also opened my eyes to the way the world can be and what the world should be like.

I am hoping that one day I shall work as a counsellor but, first and foremost, I shall concentrate on being a good parent to my little boy once he arrives in August.

If anyone needs any advice/opinion on anything (I know alot about alot of things), I shall try my very best to assist you.

Wishing you a very lovely day


aussieincome

Dear Aussieincome,

I am so thankful that you accepted my proposal. You'll be a great help to other people. I know you have a lot to contribute. I am so glad to realize that things pan out according to my vision for this board. I will start to advertise this "Friend's" Forum so it can start to live its mission. Please spread the word also.

Have a good day full of blessings!

The horse.